Failed iui = devastation?

Well my iui failed had beta today and it was negative. Even though it was only the first one along with everything else I'm still devastated! It just had to be in the same month my angel went to heaven last year! Feel like a failure since the IF problems are all with me... Hubby is perfecto! Anyways doctor wants to put me on Lupron for the first 5 days then bravelle and menopur until I have major follies then do another iui. I cannot afford all that again last month it cost 5000 bucks and that wasn't countin the lupron and the menopur I had was donated to docs. My question is did anyone have this regimen and succeed. Also has anyone been on lupron to stress their ovaries then the Fsh meds to stimulte em? The only time I been on lupron was when my quack ob put me through menopause for 6 months to "treat" my stage 4 endo. Any answers or support would be greatly appreciated. Unless your gonna be a smart-*** then please go to another question. Thanks ladies, your the best!